I have always been talking to animals and plants like they were friends. I have always been closer to my soul purpose than to anything that was expected from me. And I have always been a free spirit following the beating of my heart into the unknown.
But dear, I forgot about all of that. At school I forgot. About what I was here for. About who I was. About what it really is about. I forgot. Instead I gave my best to fit in and to confirm. To do what I was told and to find the place of fewest resistance.
But something was missing.
My head was full, my mind was busy and I could hardly hear my inner voice calling.
Something was missing.
I spent as much time as possible with horses. Riding, doing the stables, sitting and just watching them for hours. This was like medicine to me.
And as I finished school and held the paper in my hand that opened up the doors to the universities of the world to me, instead of studying, I started to follow my own path and plans again. Letting go of the schedule I once thought was made for me.
I was longing to find back the one thing I’ve been missing so much. And without knowing what I was going to find, I was searching. Searching for answers. Searching for truth. Questioning my values. And the values I have been given. Learning about body, mind and spirit in this society.